#REVERB12 (Day 20): What was lost in 2012? What do you intend to find in 2013?

LOST CERTAINTY IN 2012.  I am no longer sure of what IS and what IS not! (photo by Chiboogamoo at Hastings Reserve and artified by Hallelujah Truth)

#REVERB (Day 20) PROMPT: What was lost in 2012? What do you intend to find in 2013?

Hallelujah for NOT KNOWING. 2012 offered me a skyfall into UNCERTAINTY. Who I am and what I mean to others fluttered away this past year, like butterflies migrating to a distant land thousands of miles away. POOF, GONE, LOST...

ILLUMINATION.  I fully expect to garner pleasure in the light found in darkness, of the pleasure experienced through the joy of finding anew the SELF that I AM. Oh how LIFE spirals! I am a dizzy child on the ride! 

This is my mantra: 

NOT GOOD. NOT BAD. JUST IS. 
 (repeat as many times as you need to--I do!)

I DON'T KNOW!

I consider it a privilege to be 54 and CURIOUS about what I DON'T KNOW. I must admit that I have been attached to thinking that being MATURE meant being respected for my acquired knowledge both professionally and personally.

However, I have been summoned by the BOGEYMAN or GOD or the HOLY WOMAN who is asking me to GUFFAW and relinquish being THERE at that MATURITY POINT. Instead I will wrangle with the cowboys riding horses into horizons with setting suns, and sailors in ships raising sails with gushing winds blowing them to distant lands.

GUILTY OF SEEKING! I sing Hallelujah to my LIFE. I am guilty of seeking answers to the important questions of my life and for not knowing the answers. LIFE cannot be learned like a student cramming for an exam. Rather it is to be experienced like a fine wine. SIPPED and SAVORED. (photo by Chiboogamoo at the Monterey Bay Aquarium and played with by me.)

In 2013, I fully intend to enjoy my status as the one who curiously does not know any answers. In place of the answers, I will LAUGH JOYFULLY and seek others who want to do the same RIGHT IN THE FACE OF THE BIG QUESTION ASKER!

I have a new mantra (gratas of Elise Witt):



IN THESE TIMES
IN THESE UNCERTAIN TIMES
I WILL REMAIN OPEN 
TO THE MIRACLE OF
EACH MOMENT!

That's Coffee With Hallelujah! SOUL BLOG with me and share your losses in 2012 and intentionalities in the new year.

 ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS: Many thanks to the Voegelis for hosting during this winter celebration and providing the MIRACLE of friendship that warmly illuminates. As always, thanks to Kat at "I Saw You Dancing," for managing #REVERB12.